Its creeping up

Soon its going to be my birthday. I'm getting a bit excited about it actually. I'm not excited about receiving presents or anything like that. Cause chances are I wont really receive any lol, I dont get my hopes up about that. I am excited just chill out and drink with some friends, maybe my co-workers for the first time. That'd be cool. Tomorrow nights my classic thursday night excursion. Hopefully I wont throw up this time ha. Mmm, im tired so I think I'm just going to hit the sack now. I had a lot of good thoughts today and I just cant remember them. One thing I was thinking about is how my hair, back in the day was like a crutch. It was so easy to make friends and meet people when your hair is a conversation starter and people want to meet you because of it. You know? Like it means I do not have to develop my personality in the same way. Maybe thats why I'm suffering right now socially. I don't have any good things to speak about, no good starters. Its not like i dont have friends or can't meet new people but im in a valley. Not meeting many new people and not clicking the same way with my friends. I am clicking more with old friends though. And I am meeting new people through work and this internship so hopefully we'll all drink together and loosen up. Its much easier to get to know someone that way. Thats what I enjoy about work. Meeting new people. People that you automatically have something in common with. Often times its the only thing you have in common. And thats ok. Its another crutch right there lol. Work friends. Ok well Im really going to bed.