Progression

My life often takes sudden turns. I feel one way then I feel another. While I wrote my blog yesterday about considering becoming a lawyer I completely disregarded my other also very real dream of packing up and moving to California, France, or Spain, or all three. And just spending time in a different place. With different people, and experiencing new things. Sometimes you need to live life without a plan to really enjoy it and to be truly liberated. Its when we are in the least control that we often feel the most exhilaration. Imagine your feeling while dropping a hundred feet on a roller coaster, you just want to do it all day. Or atleast I do. I know certain people, like my mother for example are not so fond of that. But simply forgetting about our most obvious constraints in life for just a little while make us feel better then we ever can in our monotonous lives. When we leave work and our family to vacation with a lover for a week. We are at our most happy. Or at least supposedly, we are. How can we know what truly makes us happy. I just imagine, which from a book I read, our imaginations of what makes us happy is always wrong. But the fact is my imagination tells me that going to France and living for a little while would be exciting and new, and that I can just move, move to spain, get a job, waiting tables, making a reasonable amount of money to support myself and help me travel more, and I can make my way around, experiencing new things. I don't have to answer to anyone. My boss hardly even has a stake in my life, I only have to move if I'm fired. Enjoy myself. If I do well in this internship I will have some money saved up to start my travels.

Lets look at the other side, shall we? Here we go: Today I was watching some video's or Obama, and of the Kennedy's endorsements of him. The speeches surrounding this situation was really and truely inspiring. Its like the best speech I had seen for Obama. The point is that, it inspires me to go into law and politics, so I can also do my best to make change. If even on the local level. But maybe I should go do my travels while I'm young and ambitious, and after that, I can come back for study, or maybe I can continue my studies abroad, a semester here, another there, and score my degree that way. Probably not that way though. But eventually I can go back to the states and get myself into deep into the politics here. I would most likely want to be right here in Jersey at the end of my life. Maybe California or France though too, the just seem like such great places. I've been to both, but I don't remember Cali well, and I did not spend too much time in France, and mostly in Paris, and I was not overly impressed. We'll see when I go back. But living there is different, enjoying their great social programs and real life there is different then a visit. I love Spain. I should go live there. Anyway, I'm going to go to sleep now so I can wake up and go to the gym. Night.