The Fifth Element

Im sittin here watchin the fifth element. Chillin out. I went out for a little while, to chill with the girls. Chill with that girl that im hookin up with. Waste of my time to go over there. I didn't want to but I got suckered into it. Oh man, life really is like a crazy game. Thats all it is, I mean, we just live at some point, where ever our memories begin, and then end. Like, at some point, we don't even really remember things anoymore. A lot of people develope Alzheimer's and things like that, were just delerious or have no ability to make decisions for ourselves. All I'm saying is that, life is wierd, I mean, its like living in a book or something. I dont even know where I'm going with all anyway. The point is that life is just wierd. Like tonight I was hanging out, sleeping, job hunting, chilling with those girls, and I didn't really enjoy my day. Why not? Two days ago I hung out, chilled with my homie, played guitar, went out to the bar with some girls, and I had a great night. What the big difference? Is it the group of people? My attitude? It really is all attitude. Ay. Whatever. She was looking good tonight. Thats a plus. But. I still want another girl. I still want a perfect girl. A girl I'll never find. I still want that girl that I'm still in love with. I just need to work the game of life in my favor somehow. But how? Thats the real question. I'm a total dork. I'm really fake I think. I don't every know what I want. I'm crazy. I'm actually not crazy. But everything else, I am. I should talk to a shrink about all of my thoughts. Maybe they will give good advice. Eh, im out. Peace.